Home Soon
SO before I know it, I'll be home. Funny, it seems like not too long ago at all I was arriving in KLIA, experiencing the start of my reverse culture shock and feeling very big.
Can't belive it's so soon! And I can't believe this year has gone by so quickly. Yet if I think about what happened early this year, it seems so long ago. I have to say, it has been an amazing year of highs and lows and complete opposites. For one, my house 'mood' is so different now. Much quieter / tamer and only one 'crazy european'. I really miss the way things were in the first year, and I miss my 'Original housemates' especially Svenja and Sofia and the 'Almost Housemate, Ilona' so so so much. I guess in many ways, my social life revolves around my housemates a lot. I have to love the people I live with, cause I believe that housemates should be more than just people who live under the same roof. And the 'my friends are your friends' thing means that you get to meet so many people (and have so many great parties). Yet, is meeting a lot of people really all that important? I'd rather have a couple of friends I can call friends and send Christmas cards to for life rather than have a whole bunch of people I hardly know names.
Right now I feel so alone in Adelaide. Most friends have gone back, some exchange students I've hardly met this semester in fear of failing another subject again. Regret, regret, but what can I do. Have to prioritize studies (cause I hate giving up holidays to study for resits). And yet if going to the Cook Islands and having those long chats with Sofia and Ilona and having 3 hour dress up parties and making Sofia over and all that was really the cause of me failing, then sorry, but I wouldn't have changed a thing. In the end, I figure I'm not really interested in doing anything more than just getting my bachelor's and heck, I'm not the best student, so might as well make uni life an EXPERIENCE.
Been feeling a bit down lately, very moody and I hate it. I feel like a preteen all over again. Feel tired and depressed, like I just don't want to talk to anybody and have to bite my tongue so I don't have to bite someone else's head off...... I don't know what is wrong with me but Redbull somehow cures it. In fact I think Redbull is the only thing that keeps me awake and almost hyper. Coffee just makes me jumpy and caffiene tablets are a waste of money. 7 hours after a can of Redbull, I'm still pumping! But yea, hopefully these mood swings will wear off really soon. Maybe a nice day by the beach with a good book will cure it. Poor Mark, he looks so confused and upset everytime I am down, but the darling boy understands and tries to make me talk about it. Such a psychologist! I wonder how the two months of us being apart will be. We spend so much time together, he really is like my bestest friend ever. And the amazing thing is that we don't get sick of each other. In the first semester, we spent every single day together until exams. Now we don't even bother to keep track. 2 months will be wierd....
Anyway, enough blabbering.. almost 4 am, still need to sort out my fridge / freezer and want to continue reading 'My Sister's Keeper' which is an excellent book. Would be engaging if I had time to be engaged.... =(
Can't belive it's so soon! And I can't believe this year has gone by so quickly. Yet if I think about what happened early this year, it seems so long ago. I have to say, it has been an amazing year of highs and lows and complete opposites. For one, my house 'mood' is so different now. Much quieter / tamer and only one 'crazy european'. I really miss the way things were in the first year, and I miss my 'Original housemates' especially Svenja and Sofia and the 'Almost Housemate, Ilona' so so so much. I guess in many ways, my social life revolves around my housemates a lot. I have to love the people I live with, cause I believe that housemates should be more than just people who live under the same roof. And the 'my friends are your friends' thing means that you get to meet so many people (and have so many great parties). Yet, is meeting a lot of people really all that important? I'd rather have a couple of friends I can call friends and send Christmas cards to for life rather than have a whole bunch of people I hardly know names.
Right now I feel so alone in Adelaide. Most friends have gone back, some exchange students I've hardly met this semester in fear of failing another subject again. Regret, regret, but what can I do. Have to prioritize studies (cause I hate giving up holidays to study for resits). And yet if going to the Cook Islands and having those long chats with Sofia and Ilona and having 3 hour dress up parties and making Sofia over and all that was really the cause of me failing, then sorry, but I wouldn't have changed a thing. In the end, I figure I'm not really interested in doing anything more than just getting my bachelor's and heck, I'm not the best student, so might as well make uni life an EXPERIENCE.
Been feeling a bit down lately, very moody and I hate it. I feel like a preteen all over again. Feel tired and depressed, like I just don't want to talk to anybody and have to bite my tongue so I don't have to bite someone else's head off...... I don't know what is wrong with me but Redbull somehow cures it. In fact I think Redbull is the only thing that keeps me awake and almost hyper. Coffee just makes me jumpy and caffiene tablets are a waste of money. 7 hours after a can of Redbull, I'm still pumping! But yea, hopefully these mood swings will wear off really soon. Maybe a nice day by the beach with a good book will cure it. Poor Mark, he looks so confused and upset everytime I am down, but the darling boy understands and tries to make me talk about it. Such a psychologist! I wonder how the two months of us being apart will be. We spend so much time together, he really is like my bestest friend ever. And the amazing thing is that we don't get sick of each other. In the first semester, we spent every single day together until exams. Now we don't even bother to keep track. 2 months will be wierd....
Anyway, enough blabbering.. almost 4 am, still need to sort out my fridge / freezer and want to continue reading 'My Sister's Keeper' which is an excellent book. Would be engaging if I had time to be engaged.... =(
This entry was posted
on Sunday, December 18, 2005 at 12/18/2005 01:18:00 am.
You can skip to the end and leave a response.
» Post a Comment...simply said... is powered by Blogspot and Gecko & Fly.
No part of the content or the blog may be reproduced without prior written permission.
Join the Google Adsense program and learn how to make money online.